So ever since Winter break, I have been in a “avoid sugars, starches, and even starchy vegetables” as much as possible phase. Thus, I am in a constant battle against the idolatry of gluttony and temptation, and for the most part, have been very good at resisting it. I am definitely better at portion control than I was even months before. Nevertheless, I found myself craving the fresh meat, pica de gallo, etc. of Chipotle.
What I Ordered
I got a bowl since the tortilla was out of the question. I got a little bit of rice and beans just out of habit, and I thought it would be a good foundation for everything on top and absorb all the vegetables juices. Besides, I could always eat around it later. For the meat, I ordered half sofritos (the tofu with spices on the menu) and half chicken. I got some bell peppers, heaps of pica de gallo, and tried both salsas. Some might argue there are probably sugars in the salsa, but you have to live life just a little bit. I would have gotten the guacamole if I wasn’t trying to be frugal. I thought that I would just use lettuce to feel super healthy, except they ran out. I was glad I got the rice and beans….even if it was filler I didn’t actually eat.
Now the actual eating…
I figured my body was not really up to the rice and beans, so I ate around a lot of it. This was actually an amazing experience because I actually enjoyed the individual ingredients more instead of stuffing my face and getting a food coma early on. The pica de gallo and chicken was incredible. The tofu was pretty good but definitely not as filling.
Then I realized…
You actually get much better value if you order more of the raw veggies and skip the rice and beans. Think about it. Salads often cost much more than their processed counterparts at McDonald’s, Chik-fil-A, and other fast food restaurants. Rice and beans are inexpensive high-carbohydrate fillers. Every year, several churches in Cincinnati will encourage members to do a rice and bean fast and donate the money to a local charity. You can read about it here. Chipotle has very fresh ingredients compared to other chain restaurants, and having to pick around my food actually enabled me to enjoy it more.
Now the Spiritual Lesson…
As my pastor previously said, shift happens in your life. Sometimes when we are too stubborn to change, God still makes sure we change for our own good. When I first realized I needed to go on this diet to minimize symptoms, I thought it would be really challenging. I realize that while it would seem my choices of eating would be limited. I realize now that it has encouraged me to be creative and be interested in eating differently and try newer things.
Thus, I leave you with a final Scripture about change.
“And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another. For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit.”
[2 Corinthians 3:18] – See more at Prayer for Special Help.
How this lesson fits into my overall propensity for change in my diet.
I really praise God for all the changes in my diet patterns He has helped me with. There are definitely foods from two weeks ago that I would have had trouble resisting that really do not affect me now. In fact, I actually feel uncomfortable trying to eat them because my body automatically tells me “no.” This gives me encouragement because people often feel that in order to reflect change because of God’s grace, you have to be automatically healed or freed from a temptation. However, it’s important to realize that that is why God’s grace is here for, for us to turn to him when we take two steps back in the process of going forward. We have to realize that sanctification is gradual, and our mishaps remind us that we don’t attain holiness through our own acts, but through remembrance and gratitude from God’s work.
This has also been a huge lesson for me in the midst of chronic pain management. I often feel guilty and frustrated at myself when I do something (even if it is schoolwork) that causes pain in my hands, forearms, etc., but I have to remember that I am at least 80% more functional than I was even a year ago. Nevertheless, I have a lot to learn to trust God with healing my body and reducing the habits that God wants me to change in order to reduce pain.
1 John 3:3
“And everyone who thus hopes in him purifies himself as he is pure.”
Check out this sermon about change from Grace Community Church’s website.
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