As I’ve revealed in my previous blog, Let Your Desires Determine Your Actions Not Your Fears, I struggle with having confidence in myself. I have always thought I was not smart, pretty, caring, communicative, or outgoing enough. This mentality hindered me from doing the things I love. In the other blog, I addressed a practical way I tried to overcome my self-esteem issues. In this blog, I will discuss a spiritual break-through I encountered.
I have always had to desire to share the gospel with my friends and even strangers. Also, I possess a passion to counsel or help women with any issues they encounter. However, I never felt as if I was good enough. My speaking abilities are not too great. It is extremely hard for me to articulate my thought and feelings into verbal words. By default, I would avoid situations that put me in any of theses positions because I thought I could not give God the talent he needed.
It was not too long ago that upon reading The Path by Laurie Beth Jones, that God really convicted me. I had been looking at everything all so wrong. I always knew the power of the Holy Spirit was within us to be used by God. However, I lacked the faith to believe it.
What Our Faith Should Consist Of
God made us-I immediately prayed for God’s forgiveness for being so self-centered. I was doubting the talents and abilities that He gave to me. How could I doubt the one who made me?
It is through His power for His glory– If God wants to use me he will. He does not even need any of my own strengths and talents. All he acquires is faith and trust in him. The Holy Spirit will give me the words to speak and when to speak them.
We should be God-confident– It does not matter if we have confidence in ourselves. All we need to have is confidence in God. He is the almighty and sovereign God. Who am I to think that he will not be with me every second of the day?
Jesus and Peter Walk on Water
Matthew 14:25-33: “And in the fourth watch of the night he came to them, walking on the sea. But when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were terrified and said, “It is a ghost!” and they cried out in fear. But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, “Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.”
And Peter answered him, “Lord if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.” He said, “Come.” So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out, “Lord, save me.”
Jesus immediately reached out his hand and took hold of him, saying to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?” And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased. And those in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”
This passage is so powerful because it is truly the power of God through whom we do everything. The moment we doubt him and focus on ourselves we will fail. Even when we do doubt, God immediately picks us back up. Then we should continually try to step outside of our comfort zones into where he calls us and have faith that he is with us every step of the way.